I Cannot Live Without You

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This is so, so, so, so, so, so me. I can’t live without books. They are my essence, my air, my life, etc.

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Books are so much a part of me, they are a fraction of my soul. I’d die without them.

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Seriously!

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For more Richard Marek, go to Some Things Never Change

For more book related posts go to Stranded for Good

For more of my favorite Quotes go to Do the Right Thing

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You Think You Know Something, Don’t You?: Shadow of a Doubt (1943)

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“You think you know something, don’t you? You think you’re the clever little girl who knows something. There’s so much you don’t know, so much. What do you know, really? You’re just an ordinary little girl, living in an ordinary little town. You wake up every morning of your life and you know perfectly well that there’s nothing in the world to trouble you. You go through your ordinary little day, and at night you sleep your untroubled ordinary little sleep, filled with peaceful stupid dreams. And I brought you nightmares.”

So for my first Alfred Hitchcock film, I am going to review Shadow of a Doubt. This really surprised me as I never thought this would have been the first, (I was sure it would be Psycho). But I had such an urge to talk about it, that I had to follow it. Now this has never been considered one of Hitchcock’s greats, in fact it bombed at the office, but it was both Alfred Hitchcock’s and Teresa Wright’s favorite film.

I actually have a personal connection to this film myself. I used to go to college near Santa Rosa and one day for film class we were going to watch a psychological film. The one we chose wouldn’t work and I suggested that we had to watch an Alfred Hitchcock film, specifically Shadow of a Doubt. I had this urge and was pushing the film so hard, even though it is not one of my favorite Hitchcock films. It was only when we watched it, that I remembered that it was set and filmed in Santa Rosa. In fact, I have been to all the areas the film was set in.

So the film is supposed to be about a happy town, full of normal American people, but underneath this lies something horrible. This kind of thing was what David Lynch ended up doing and becoming famous for in his film Blue Velvet and TV series Twin Peaks.

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So the film starts off with the extremely handsome Joseph Cotten, lying on a bed. His name is Charlie Oakley.

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His landlady knocks on the door and tells him that there are two men looking for him. Charlie quickly packs some things up, gathers his money, and takes off. He makes plans to get out of the East coast, going heading to California to visit his sister Emma in Santa Rosa.

In Santa Rosa, we meet Charlie 2 (Teresa Wright), named after her Uncle Charlie. (From now on I’m going to say Charlie for Teresa Wright and Uncle Charlie for Joseph Cotten as otherwise it will be too confusing.) Anyways, Charlie has been complaining that life is boring. Nothing interesting ever happens in life.

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She finds out that her Uncle Charlie is coming and is ecstatic. The two of them have always shared a special bond. Out of everyone in their family, she feels that Charlie is the only one who really gets her.

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Uncle Charlie greets the family and not only bring life into the house but gifts. Charlie gets the most special gift of all, an emerald ring. Charlie notices an engraving of intials on the inside and asks Uncle Charlie what they stand for. He doesn’t know and blames the jeweler for selling him an old ring instead of a new one.

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Sound suspicious

He keeps trying to push Charlie to let him get it re-engraved, but she refuses. At dinner, Emma is humming this song. It has been stuck in her head all day and she can’t remember what it is called. She asks around to everyone else, and her husband Joseph says that it is The Merry Widow Waltz. When Uncle Charlie hears this, he is startled and spills his wine.

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After dinner, Joseph’s friend comes over. Now this is an interesting subplot. The two of them are huge mystery fans and are constantly trying to create the perfect murder. This subplot always makes me laugh and it reminds me of a friend and I. We are always talking about the best way to kill someone and get away with it. I always go with the Secret Window way.

“Joseph Newton: We’re not talking about killing people. Herb’s talking about killing me and I’m talking about killing him.”

In fact, they remind me of Randy from Scream except with actual murders, than horror films.

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They determine one of the best ways to kill someone is to disguise the murder as a suicide.

The next day, Uncle Charlie is reading the paper, when he sees a story that upsets him. He rips the page with the story on it, and turns it into a house for the kids, hiding the ripped story in his pocket. Ann and Roger think it’s are cool, but they have to dismantle it as their father hasn’t had a chance to look at the paper.

Charlie saw him hiding the torn pages and starts teasing her Uncle. She grabs them out of his pocket and tries to put them together. But before she can, Uncle Charlie gets angry and pushes her away. She becomes frightened, but Uncle Charlie consoles her,  telling her that it was a bad story about a friend.

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Soon after, two men approach the family and let them know they have been chosen to be the feature family for a census agency on “typical American family-ness”. They will be coming to interview them and photograph their average lives.

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Emma is really excited as Uncle Charlie will now be a part of the featured story. She tells Charlie about how she only has one photo of him. It was when he was a little boy, before he got in a horrible accident. After he recovered from the accident he never was the same again. Often getting into trouble.

Uncle Charlie says he will be staying in town for a while, and then begins acting strangely. At the bank he deposits forty thousand dollars in cash and makes all these jokes about the bank and Joseph (Charlie’s dad) embezzling funds. He also extremely avoids the census takers. He thinks they are up to something. Whenever they come to the house, he always leaves and won’t answer any questions.

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When his picture gets taken, he becomes extremely angry and demands for the negative roll.

The younger of the two census workers, (Macdonald Carey), asks Charlie to be his guide of the town, and she agrees only to please her mother. When he gets her alone he tells her that he isn’t a census taker, but that instead he is Detective Jack Graham and that he is with the FBI. They are investigating “The Merry Widow Murderer”, a man who romances widows and murders them taking their money. He tells her that that they have two suspects. One of which is her Uncle Charlie.

Noooooooooo!!!!!!!

Noooooooooo!!!!!!!

The next day Charlie is still reeling from the news and sleeps all day. She doesn’t want to believe her Uncle Charlie is capable of murder. However, she can’t help thinking about his suspicious behavior.

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Sound suspicious

Charlie gets even more freaked out when Uncle Charlie gives a rant on widows.

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“Uncle Charlie: The cities are full of women, middle-aged widows, husbands, dead, husbands who’ve spent their lives making fortunes, working and working. And then they die and leave their money to their wives, their silly wives. And what do the wives do, these useless women? You see them in the hotels, the best hotels, every day by the thousands, drinking the money, eating the money, losing the money at bridge, playing all day and all night, smelling of money, proud of their jewelry but of nothing else, horrible, faded, fat, greedy women… Are they human or are they fat, wheezing animals, hmm? And what happens to animals when they get too fat and too old?”

Charlie suffers a breakdown as she can’t handle the thought that her Uncle is a murderer. That coupled with her father and Herb’s constant murder talk, ugh she just needs to get away. Uncle Charlie follows her and takes her to a bar to talk.

At the bar, he confronts her suspicions and tells her that he is considered for The Merry Widow Murderer”, but it isn’t him. It is just a coincidence.

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Yes I am

Charlie listens, but something doesn’t sit right with her. She still feels suspicious. She sneaks into Uncle Charlie’s room to try and figure out what article he had ripped up.

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She can’t put the pieces back together, and instead heads to the library. She convinces the librarian to let her search the papers and discovers that “The Merry Widow Murderer” killed a famous entertainer. She notices that the initials of the woman match the ring Uncle Charlie gave her.

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She goes to her uncle to confront him, and he asks her not to say anything. She agrees to wait as she knows it will hurt her mother.

Meanwhile, Jack is pushing Charlie to give him info on her Uncle, but she won’t say a thing. They sent the photo of Uncle Charlie back East but haven’t heard whether or not he is the guy the are actually after. The other suspect they were considering was killed fleeing from the police and many believe he is the murderer.

After this news, Jack goes to Charlie and tells her that he likes her. And that he would like to date her, maybe even marry her one day.

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I know. He has been nice, but he never even seemed to show that he was that interested in her. He totally pulls a Mr. Darcy, completely dropping that bomb out of the blue.

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Uncle Charlie is all smiles and it seems like everything is fine, but Charlie can’t shake an uneasy feeling.

This doesn't feel right.

This doesn’t feel right.

Soon Charlie suffers from an accident. As she is coming down the stairs one of the steps falls through causing her to fall. She checks later but can’t tell of any tampering.

Oh what a horrible accident.

Oh what a horrible accident.

Now these are some of the best scenes in the film. In the beginning you aren’t sure if Uncle Charlie is doing anything, whether they are accidents or not. I mean could he really be so cold-blooded as to kill his own niece?

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Uncle Charlie is asked to give a public lecture and the whole family is going to go hear him speak. There isn’t enough room for them to go in one car, so they decide to send most in a taxi, with the Charlies going in the car. Charlie gets trapped in her garage with the car going. She calls for help, but the music Uncle Charlie is playing overpowers her screams.

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Luckily, Herb is coming by as he does everyday and hears her, freeing her.

The next day, Uncle Charlie decides that he is leaving. Everyone but Charlie is sad to see him go. As he gets on the train we see that he won’t be traveling alone, but a rich widow from the town. Every one comes on board to check out the train, with Uncle Charlie gets Charlie to stay longer to talk. The train starts going while she is on it. She tries to run off, but Uncle Charlie tries to push her off the train onto the track of an oncoming one.

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The two struggle and Charlie manages to overpower him, knocking him off the train.

There is a funeral for Uncle Charlie and Jack comes back. Charlie tells him the truth and why she kept it hidden from him. Together they resolve to keep Uncle Charlie’s crimes a secret.

You have to see this film. The story is great, the acting amazing, and the cinematography is just beautiful.

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To start Horrorfest III from the beginning, go to Even a Man Pure of Heart

For the previous post, go to It’s Happening Again, Isn’t It?

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For more on Alfred Hitchcock, go to Horrorfest III: The Revenge

For more classic cinema, go to Feast Your Eyes On My Accursed Ugliness

For more serial killers, go to What’s Your Favorite Scary Movie?

For more psychological thrillers, go to A Deliciously Creepy Tale

For more of my favorite quotes, go to Happily Ever Aftermath

For more on Twin Peaks, go to Food, Food, Food!

I Will Survive

I Will Survive

This brings us to our last post on the “Getting Over a Heartbreak” series:

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31) I Will Survive by Gloria Gaynor

So here we are on the last post. I’m actually pretty sad to see these postings end. Now don’t get me wrong they are a lot of work and it will be nice to have a reprieve before Horrorfest III begins (which I expect you all to check out. You’re gonna love it, I know it!). But it was a lot of fun as I was able to cover all kinds of my favorite songs. It was a lot of emotions to go through as well, especially those earlier posts.

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But they have been a lot of fun, and I’ve had an absolutely fantastic time.

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Now onto the song. So I Will Survive was written by Freddie Perren and Dino Fekaris; and released by Gloria Gaynor in 1978. It became huge after it came out, not only being one of the most popular disco songs, but being Gaynor’s biggest hit. Yes, it is Disco and Disco rocks!

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It scored #1 on Billboard Top 100 in 1979.  It has been covered by tons of artists and featured in all kinds of film.

The best thing about this song is that it hits every emotion you express after a breakup; sadness, anguish, fear, lonliness, anger, resentment, and eventually reaching the point where you don’t care anymore. You are over them.

Over You

You will survive

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Not only does this song have powerful lyrics, but the music itself is amazingly upbeat and really gets you pumped up and ready for anything. After all:

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At first I was afraid I was petrified

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Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side

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But then I spent so many nights
Thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along

I'm through

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And so you’re back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second you’d be back to bother me
Go on now go, walk out the door

Get out
Just turn around now
‘Cause you’re not welcome anymore

I don't know you
Weren’t you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
Do you think I’d crumble
Did you think I’d lay down and die?

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Oh no not I. I will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love

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I know I’ll stay alive
I’ve got all my life to live

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I’ve got all my love to give and I’ll survive
I will survive! Hey, Hey!

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It took all strength I had not to fall apart
Kept trying’ hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart

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And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself, I used to cry

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But now I hold my head up high
And you see me, somebody new
I’m not that chained up little person still in love with you

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And so you felt like dropping in
And just expect me to be free
Now I’m saving all my lovin’ for someone who’s lovin’ me

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Go on now go, walk out the door
Just turn around now
‘Cause you’re not welcome anymore
Weren’t you the one who tried to break me with goodbye
Do you think I’d crumble
Did you think I’d lay down and die?

Oh no not I. I will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love
I know I’ll stay alive
I’ve got all my life to live
I’ve got all my love to give and I’ll survive
I will survive, Oh

Go on now go, walk out the door
Just turn around now
‘Cause you’re not welcome anymore
Weren’t you the one who tried to crush me with goodbye
Do you think I’d crumble
Did you think I’d lay down and die?

Oh no not I. I will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love
I know I’ll stay alive
I’ve got all my life to live
I’ve got all my love to give and I’ll survive
I will survive,
I will survive!

IWillSurvive

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Here is a complete list of the “Getting Over a Heartbreak” series:

1) If It Means A Lot to You by A Day to Remember

2) The End by Silverstein

3) I Don’t Love You by My Chemical Romance

4) Now You’re Gone by Everyday Sunday

5) Heartbreak Hotel by Elvis Presley

6) Good or Bad by Action Item

7) Love Stinks by J. Geils Band

8) That’s What You Get by Paramore

9) Chin Up Kid by Forever the Sickest Kids 

10) I’ll Be Alright Without You by Journey

11) For a Pessimist, I’m Pretty Optimistic

12) Missing You by John Waite

13) Gone Forever by Three Days Grace

14) Put Me Out by The Used

15) But It’s Alright by Huey Lewis & the News

16) Since U Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson

17) Move Along by All-American Rejects

18) Up and Up (Acoustic) by Reliant K

19) Red Rubber Ball by The Cyrkle

20) Over You by Daughtry

21) I Don’t Wanna Be in Love (Dance Floor Anthem)

22) Here I Go Again by Whitesnake

23) Love Will Find a Way by Pablo Cruise

24) Don’t Stop Believin’ by Journey

25) The Lining is Silver by Relient K

26) Whip It by Devo

27) Be Good to Yourself by Journey

28) Any Way You Want It by Journey

29) Unbound by Avenged Sevenfold

30) Here I Go by Relient K

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For more on Gloria Gaynor, go to I’ll Be Alright Without You

For more on Margaret Mitchell, go to At the End of the Rainbow

For more on Sarah Dessen, go to Happy B-day!

For more on Friends, go to Pizza Power

For more on Cinderella, go to Episode VI: Return Of the My Favorite Movie Lines’ List

Here I Go

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Well here I go, the second to last post on our “Getting Over a Heartbreak” list:

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30) Here I Go by Relient K

So here we are, another Relient K song. I think if you look at the whole list you’ll see a majority of the songs are either Journey or Relient K. I can’t help it! That’s what I was digging after my break up.

So the reason why I put this second to last on my “Getting Over a Heartbreak” series, was that I thought It really expressed how one feels after you have been through everything and are 100% over that other person.

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But over in the sense that you aren’t angry, you don’t care about that other person, you have completely moved on and are just focusing on what is coming next in your life. Enjoying being yourself and being alive. Here I Go!

Yeah!
Oh, believe me I have tried
to work this out from the inside
then I finally realized I need to move on with my life

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Gotta make something happen
not just sit around and wait for it
this place is like a prison I think I’m going to have to make a break for it
whoa-o here I go it’s like I made it for the first time
whoa-o here I go and I think it’s the first time I felt alive

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Yeah! Alive!
I’ve been so depressed I’ve been let down
been pushed aside been pushed around
there’s one thing that I need
something you can’t take from me

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Gotta make something happen
not just sit around and wait for it
this place is like a prison I think I’m going to have to make a break for it
whoa-o here I go it’s like I made it for the first time
whoa-o here I go and I think it’s the first time I felt alive
whoa-o here I go it’s like I made it for the first time
whoa-o here I go and I think it’s the first time I felt alive

Move up, move on
you blink I’m gone
we only have one life to live
I’ll live it now
you have no doubt
I’ll prove you wrong
this is the only thing that I know
so here I go

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[Chorus]
whoa-o here I go it’s like I made it for the first time
whoa-o here I go and I think it’s the first time I felt alive
whoa-o here I go it’s like I made it for the first time
whoa-o here I go I think it’s the first time I felt alive.

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Forget the past

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Live your life

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After all:

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Most important:

BelieveinYourself

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To start the “Getting Over a Heartbreak” series rom the beginning, go to If It Means A Lot to You

For the previous post, go to Unbound

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For more on Relient K, go to The Lining is Silver

For more on Clint Eastwood, go to I’ll Be Alright Without You

For more on Seventh Day Slumber, go to Gone Forever

For more on my fav songs, go to Treat Her Right

For more on Boy Meets World, go to I Only Answer to the Name of Oommmooooowwwwo!

For more on believing in yourself, go to Any Way You Want It

For more of my favorite quotes, go to Part IX: Adventures in Movie Lines

Here I Go Again

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So here we go again. Yes here we go again…

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Couldn’t resist

So those of you who don’t know, those are lyrics from the song.

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So here we go again, another post on our “Getting Over a Heartbreak Series”.

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22) Here I Go Again by Whitesnake

Now if I had to pick my favorite song, absolutely had to pick one it would be this one. I love this song so, so, so, so, so much.

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This is the song that has gotten me through everything. Any horrible events, broken friendships, break ups, moving, and making any drastic changes. It always helps empower me and make me feel like I can get through anything.

The song came out in 1982, but then was re-recorded and released in 1987. The 1987 version is the one I love. It was number one on the Billboard Hot 100 and number 17 on VH1‘s 100 Greatest Songs of the ’80s.

The song was written by  the lead singer, David Coverdale, and former Whitesnake guitarist, Bernie Marsden

I just feel that this song is absolutely amazing! I cannot stress that enough. I included it at this point in the breakup list as I feel it goes perfectly after the last song. Here you are going on with your life. Here you go on your own. You are making a vow to not wasting anymore time moping and crying. Here I go again. 🙂

I don’t know where I’m going
But, I sure know where I’ve been
Hanging on the promises
In songs of yesterday
An’ I’ve made up my mind,
I ain’t wasting no more time
But, here I go again
Here I go again

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Tho’ I keep searching for an answer,
I never seem to find what I’m looking for
Oh Lord, I pray
You give me strength to carry on,
‘Cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

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An’ here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
An’ I’ve made up my mind
I ain’t wasting no more time

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I’m just another heart in need of rescue,
Waiting on love’s sweet charity
An’ I’m gonna hold on
For the rest of my days,
‘Cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

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An’ here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
An’ I’ve made up my mind
I ain’t wasting no more time

But, here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go…

An’ I’ve made up my mind,
I ain’t wasting no more time

An’ here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
‘Cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An’ here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
An’ I’ve made up my mind
I ain’t wasting no more time…

But, here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go,
Here I go again…

And I have to say that I also absolutely love the version by Rock of Ages.

Remember:

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Because:

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Go on along the road:

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And above all remember:

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musicnotes

To start the “Getting Over a Heartbreak” series from the beginning, go to If It Means A Lot to You

For the previous post, go to I Don’t Wanna Be in Love (Dance Floor Anthem)

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For more ’80s songs, go to Missing You

For more of my fav songs, go to Over You

For more on Audrey Hepburn, go to Women in Black

For more on James Joyce, go to Good or Bad

For more on Mandy Hale, go to But It’s Alright

For more on Rock of Ages, go to Nothing But a Good Time

Chin Up Kid

Life Goes On

So here is another installment in the series of “Songs to Help You Get Over Heartbreak”. So we have moved past the crying and weeping, past regretfulness and love stinks, and now are at realization that it is a part of life. It happened once, and will again.

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With this realization, it doesn’t always mean that you are over it (everyone moves on at their own speed) but that you are closer to being completely over it. This next song is:

chin up kid forever the sickest kids you know9) Chin Up Kid by Forever the Sickest Kids

So this is another band I got into after listening to the Vans Warped Tour 2013 CD. Now I listened to this song over and over and over and over and over again, when I was dealing with my breakup. I really like it because of the lyrics, how true they are; along with having being a really upbeat song that makes you feel good. Plus their music video is amazing!!! You are going to love it!!!

The band wrote the song for those specific reasons.

“It’s a feeling that anyone who’s been through heartbreak will recognize. ‘Chin Up Kid’ can be a very relatable song to most. We wrote this song about keeping your head up through heartbreak and trying times. Young love can come and go before you realize you even had it. We hope this song motivates the listener to find inner strength to keep moving on and pressing forward.”

So here are the amazing lyrics.

Everybody hurts every once in a while
And everybody loses sleep with a broken heart
Good things come and go but kid you’ll learn how to cope
When something feels right, be ready to let it go

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I remember hurting her and her hurting me
I remember losing sleep, she was haunting my dreams
It’s alright, chin up kid, it’ll all be fine
There’s not a wound in this world that won’t heal with time

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You’re just a boy
She’s just a girl
You’ll break her heart
She’ll wreck your world
But life goes on, the ending’s the starting line
Chin up, press on, you will survive
Young love that lasts is hard to find
So chin up, press on, you will survive

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Gotta learn to be OK with being alone
You gotta learn to love yourself before you love someone else
It’s hard to be patient
W
hile she’s keeping you waiting

I remember loving her, her not loving me
And I remember losing sleep, she was haunting my dreams
And it’s alright, chin up kid, it’ll all be fine
There’s not a wound in this world that won’t heal with time


You’re just a boy
She’s just a girl
You’ll break her heart
She’ll wreck your world
But life goes on, the ending’s the starting line
Chin up, press on, you will survive
Young love that lasts is hard to find
So chin up, press on, you will survive

Woah oh oh, woah oh oh, woah
(Woah oh oh, woah oh oh, woah)
Woah oh oh, woah oh oh, woah
(Woah oh oh, woah oh oh, woah…)

And everything will be alright
And everything will be just fine
And everything will be alright
Yeah!

You’re just a boy
She’s just a girl
You’ll break her heart
She’ll wreck your world
But life goes on, the ending’s the starting line
Chin up, press on, you will survive
Young love that lasts is hard to find
So chin up, press on, you will survive

Life goes on, the ending’s the starting line
Chin up, press on, you will survive
Young love that lasts is hard to find
So chin up, press on, you will survive

You will survive!

No matter how painful something is you will survive and get over it. It just takes time.

I Will Survive

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For more on Songs to Help You Get Over Heartbreak, go to If It Means A Lot to You

To go to the previous post, go to That’s What You Get

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For other posts you may like:

For more of my fav songs, go to Now You’re Gone

For more of my fav quotes, go to Heartbreak Hotel

For more on first loves, go to A Letter of Love

For more on how life goes on, go to The End by Silverstein

For more on how love stinks, go to Love Stinks

For more song off the Vans Warped Tour 2013 CD that have had an impact on me, go to Good or Bad

Best Friends

Friends-Best-Friends

I love Sarah Dessen, she is such a great writer. This quote is from her novel Someone Like You and it is something that is so true. Life is horrible without someone to share it with, and one of the greatest loves there is, is friendship, true friendship.

For more on Sarah Dessen go to Thanks a Lot

For more of my favorite quotes go to True Treasure 

For more book related posts, go to What I Want Out of Life

A Trip to the Mall Turns into the Twilight Zone

So if you’ve been around since the very, very beginning of the creation of this blog, then you will remember that this isn’t my first blog. You see, I read this book Considering Lily, and the main character in there reminded me of myself and made me want to create a blog like she does. My friend Elaine also encouraged me after we had a particularly strange encounter at the mall. That blog was called My Life is a Movie. However, I stupidly forgot to bookmark the page and when I tried to go back to write more on that blog I could not find it at all. I also discovered that there are many, many, many, many blogs who share that name or a variation of it. I gave up and decided blogging wasn’t for me. That is until six months later, after I had finished reading Emma. I loved the book and saw so many similarities that I decided to create a blog, and that dear readers is how Jane Austen Runs My Life was born.

cropped-jatitle2.jpgAnd, that in case you were all wondering, is why it is not only about Jane Austen. That’s how this blog started out, but it quickly expanded into other films and books. However, my Austiniteness will always be the core of these blogs.

Anyways, so what about this Twilight Zone title? Well, I was cleaning through some files and I found two pics I had created and saved from that orginal blog and story. I decided to treat you all with this time capsule as I try and relate this adventure that happened two years ago. I’m so sorry of I leave anything out. So now we shall take a seat in my time machine Delorean and  go back to February 10 or 11 2012 (I know it was before V-Day)

Gonna Go Back in Time!

Since this is a past memory, it must be written in italics. You know, kinda like an old-fashioned diary or something.

So the other day my friend Elaine and I decided that we would go to the mall. She wanted to go to Bed, Bath, and Beyond for something and I wanted to pick something up from Bare Escentuals. She decided to put on her GPS, but there was just one problem. GPSs HATE ME! Every time I get in a car with one we end up in the middle of nowhere, we go in the opposite direction, the GPS malfunctions, takes us through the creepiest areas, etc. I’m not kidding, it is literally every time. I mean once my friend went to the Super Target in the next town, and the next week was going to give me and two of our other friends a ride. Even though she had saved the route from the week before, this next time because I was in the car it took us as far away as possible, even though it said it was saving the exact route.

So we are driving around, when the GPS tells us it has to recalculate. We both look at each other:

Say What

Like what the heck GPS you had nooo reason to recalculate. We didn’t make any wrong turns, or do anything to screw you up. What are you doing? And the little evil thing decided that it was  going to keep doing that to us.

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It just kept doing that nonstop! Recalculate, recalculate, recalculate, again and again and again!!! It made both of annoyed, but I just wanted to take that thing and toss it out the window.

ARRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!

ARRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!

You know I really didn’t like that movie, but I use this screenshot a loooot. It really expresses my emotions sometimes.

So, of course I didn’t toss the GPS, it belonged to my friend. Instead we had to use a mixture of her phone GPS and our memory of where we thought the mall was. We ended up getting there and thought, well everything will be fine and normal now, right? WRONG!!!!

So we park the car and head into Forever 21 so that we could get into the mall and get the items we needed. As we enter Forever 21 we look around the store, and look, and look, and look; and can’t find a way out!

AHHHHHHH!!!!

AHHHHHHH!!!!

I am serious there is NO WAY OUT!  We can’t even find the way we entered. I’m like I”M STUCK IN HERE FOREVER!!!!!!! THAT’S WHY IT’S CALLED FOREVER 21, I WILL BE IN HERE FOR 21 YEARS!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, so let’s get serious. I felt like I was going to be stuck in there, but not for years. Just hours. So the reason we couldn’t find a way out was that it turns out that they had all these mirrors hanging strategically in front of the doors, so unless you looked at the doors from an angle you would only see the clothes reflected back, therefore leaving one to think the store extended farther than it did, and that there was no way out.

Whoever designed that store was like Jigsaw level of sadistic and psychotic.

Whoever designed that store was like Jigsaw level of sadistic and psychotic.

I’m serious, those designers and planners were just plan mean and cruel. Who does that?

So after we had survived the dastardly Forever 21, we continued to our destination, when Elaine says she has to use the bathroom. So we decide that we are not going back into Forever 21, but look through the place for other bathrooms. We found them, but you had to walk down this hallway with black and white checkerboards. We walk and walk and walk and walk  and walk and walk…. Yeah it just seems to go on forever. And those white and black checkerboard tiles, give the hall an appearance of shrinking that we start to feel as if we are in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory or something! 

Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory

Except sadly there was no chocolate or Gene Wilder in this adventure.

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So we finally reach the bathroom, and go in. But when we come out it feels so weird. It feels like we have been in the mall for hours and hours, or even days. We both started joking around that when we finally got back to the mall we would be entering the 1960s or something. I have expected Rod Serling to pop out at any moment and say “What started out as just an average day for those two girls, turned out to be a shortcut…into…THE TWILIGHT ZONE.”

To be perfectly honest, I love him so much I wouldn't care if he did pop up like that.

To be perfectly honest, I love him so much I wouldn’t care if he did pop up like that.

So the rest of the trip was pretty normal. We were both freaked out, that we got what we wanted and got outta there. We were able to get past the Forever 21 gauntlet/maze

I can do this....just have to wait for the right time

I can do this….just have to wait for the right time

We get out to the parking lot and when we do we CAN’T FIND THE CAR!

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And NO we were not high. So we are walking up rows looking for it. Joking, and half-believing, that we will find out that it is parked in a completely different area or back on campus. We finally find it and head home. 

Yep what an adventure right? You might not believe me but its true.

Like that's happen

I swear. And I have never been back to that Forever 21 because it is tooo creepy to do that again. Stick to the Disney store, its safe. 🙂

Nothing But A Good Time

So I’ve been trying to pick a song that describes me and my life. As this is not an easy quest, the song changes depending on my mood and what’s been going on in my life. At this current moment I decided that the song that almost perfectly describes my state of mind is Nothing But a Good Time by Poison.

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The song was released in 1988 and reached #6 on Billboard Top 100. It later was used in the musical Rock of Ages, along with the movie. In both of these it is a combo song, in the musical it is a combination of “Just Like Paradise/Nothing But a Good Time” sung by Lonny & co. In the film it is a combo of “Sister Christian/Just Like Paradise/Nothing But a Good Time“, sung by Sherri (Julianne Hough), Drew (Diego Boneta) <3, Lonny (Russell Brand), Dennis (Alec Baldwin), & co.

So here’s how it relates.

I go to college, work two jobs, T.A., and volunteer once a week. I’m always working and saving money, but always feel so packed as I try to do everything. Sometimes I wish I could just go off and “look for a good time”.

How it doesn’t realate is that I’m not into girls so I don’t have one to hang out with Saturday night and I don’t spend my money on women and wine. I’m straight and a straight-edge. And I always know what bed I wake up in, because its my own, alone. The only time I don’t wake up in my bed, is when I’ve been pulling an all-nighter.

Now Listen
Not a dime, I can’t pay my rent
I can barely make it through the week
Saturday night I’d like to make my girl
But right now I can’t make ends meet

I’m always workin’ slavin’ every day
Gotta get away from that same old same old
I need a chance just to get away
If you could hear me think this is what I’d say

Chorus:
Don’t need nothin’ but a good time
How can I resist
Ain’t lookin’ for nothin’ but a good time
And it don’t get better than this

They say I spend my money on women and wine
But I couldn’t tell you where I spent last night
I’m really sorry about the shape I’m in
I just like my fun every now and then

I’m always workin’ slavin’ every day
Gotta get away from that same old same old
I need a chance just to get away
If you could hear me think this is what I’d say

Chorus:
Don’t need nothin’ but a good time
How can I resist
Ain’t lookin’ for nothin’ but a good time
And it don’t get better than this

You see I raise a toast to all of us
Who are breakin’ our backs every day
If wantin’ the good life is such a crime
Lord, then put me away
Here’s to ya

Guitar Solo 

Chorus:
Don’t need nothin’ but a good time
How can I resist
Ain’t lookin’ for nothin’ but a good time
And it don’t get better than this

Here’s the link to the complete music video. This was so me today, I had to complete a herculean task, that is wash a gazillion dishes.

This one isn’t complete, but if you don’t mind that I hope you enjoy.

Do you have song that describes your current state of life? Comment below what it is.

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For more of my favorite songs, go to Eye of the Tiger

For more ’80s music, go to It’s the Final Countdown

Thanks A Lot

So with it being Thanksgiving, and me unable to do any kind of daily countdown (no time), I decided to do just a regular list of what I am thankful for. This is something my family does around the table every year. I’m only going to do a top 5 list so we can be at that pie!

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1) God

I know some of you out there are not a Christian, but I am. Sorry if you are offended by this, but I’m going to proclaim it. I am thankful for everything God does for me. He protects me, cares for me, and is always there for me through everything. I can’t imagine going through life without him leading me.

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2) My Family

I will always be most thankful for my family as they are always there for me and support me through everything I go through. I know some people end up with horrible people in their family and never want to see them, but I just adore mine. I couldn’t imagine life with out them.

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3) Viewers Like You

I’m so happy to see that there are people out there reading my posts and commenting on them. I know I’ve said it before, but I am really thankful I have some people out there who are enjoying my writings. At one point I was scared no one would want to read any of my stuff.

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4) Jane Austen

Jane Austen is one of the best writers ever! She really revolutionized the guidelines of the novel. I love all her work and am so glad that she became a writer. Where would we be without Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility, Northanger Abbey, Mansfield Park, Persuasion, and Emma? I know this blog wouldn’t have been created. There would have been a huge hole in my life without her.

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5) Friends

Friends are always there to laugh and cry with you. Without them life would be so boring! After all “Life is an awful, ugly place to not have a best friend.” –Sarah Dessen, Someone Like You

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I hope you all are having a great day. Eat, drink, and be merry!

“Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.” 1 Chronicles 16:33-35
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 For more on Thanksgiving, go to I Before E, Especially After P
For another holiday post go to Let’s Hear it for the Boy
For more bible verses, go to Here I Go Again
For more on Sarah Dessen, go to The End