Why Were You Driven Away?

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19) Something That You Miss

I really, really, really miss the drive-in.

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As you can guess, in my home town the drive-in closed.

Noooooooooo!!!!!!!

Noooooooooo!!!!!!!

Sadly, the man who owned¬†the drive-in, didn’t actually own the property. Every year the landlord would raise the rent, until the guy said forget it. It’s not worth it anymore.

Noo!

Noo!

It then became a swamp meet, but eventually closed down and is nothing but a former shell.

In fact, not only did my town’s drive-in close down, but all the ones in the area. You have to drive an hour and a half away to get to one. And it’s not just us, drive-ins everywhere are closing down and I don’t know why, they are awesome.

I love the drive-in, bringing a bunch of people in a car and watching the film under the stars. Having a ginormpus screen! Oh, it’s just the coolest. We need to bring those back. We need to make this happen everyone.

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Until then, let me leave you with this very memorable drive-in moment. ūüôā

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To start the 30 Day challenge from the beginning, go to Musical Madness

For the previous post, go to By Boat, By Train, By Foot, By Plane

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The Final Chapter

So if you have been following my blog you probably wonder why my attitude from my ex went from I’m happy it’s over to he’s a cheating, lying,

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Some of you are probably like that is every relationship, but no that’s not the reason. Let me back up and just give you who are new to following a brief recap.

So my ex and I broke up last year and it was not the best ending for me. You see I was away at school and we were trying to make a long-distance relationship work.

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I had thought things were fine, until Michael, my ex started talking to me less and less. I went down to see him and he took an extra shift. When I was coming back for Thanksgiving he wasn’t sure he would be able to fit me in.

Now for all you people (and me now) it is clear that this guy was obviously moving on from me. But of course, I didn’t see it as:

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So he was talking to me less and less and I was just so confused by it.

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My grandfather died, and still barely any peep from him. I know, my grandfather dies and he can’t see me or comfort me. What a major loser, am I right?

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So I go surprise attack him and see him, trying to get an answer out of him why he was so distant. Did he even want to stay together? You know, the usual questions. I mean I was so confused and unhappy and emotional, I just wanted the truth. We ended up breaking up. Now at first I was completely heartbroken, and there are earlier posts which detail that phase of my life.

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In fact I stupidly blamed myself for most of it. Maybe if I had done this differently or this we would still be together.

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Luckily, I eventually realized it wasn’t all my fault, in fact I was a great girlfriend. I sent him care packages, I treated him wonderfully and he was the one who was acting wrong and not like a boyfriend at all. I mean I got hit on by tons of guys and could have cheated on him or passed him up for someone “better”, but I didn’t as I really cared about him. I’m not gonna lie, it took a while, but I eventually got over him.

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I realized that breaking up was better than being in a relationship that was becoming non-existent.

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I mean he couldn’t even get up the balls to break up with me. Like what was he expecting me to do ¬†over Christmas break? Never come around?

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But then I found out something. You see, Michael was cheating on me those past few months of our relationship. When I found that out I was incensed! I wanted to hurt him so bad!

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I was seriously angry. I would imagine myself going and punching his lights out.

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I really wanted to make him pay. In fact it took every ounce of my will to not go to his work and teach him a lesson.

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Now some of you this might seem a normal response, but for those of you who are shocked or appalled at my confession, let me tell you why this rankled me so much. You see I have always vetted the guys I date very throughly, so much that many don’t make it far with me. Yes, I’m picky but I just don’t want any old boy.

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And I had allowed Michael to get farther than any other boy had. I became his girlfriend, which is something I had always stayed away from becoming as I was always afraid of picking the wrong guy. With Michael, I didn’t think we were soul mates or meant to be together forever, but he just seemed so right.

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Only for me to find out I was dead wrong. Extremely wrong. You see when he asked me to be his girlfriend I told him I had three rules he had to agree to for me to say yes. The first was to NEVER, EVER cheat on me. Cheating is just a horrible thing to do as it screws people up for a long time. Second to call or skype me once a week, and third visit me at least once a semester. He agreed, especially to the first rule as he had been cheated on before and knew what it felt like.

That horrible guy!

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How could he treat me like that if he knew how it felt! I was enraged! But slowly, I got over it.

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It sucks that the first guy I gave my heart to turned out to be such a Wickham:

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But I’m not going to let him have any more power over my life. I already wasted time thinking, crying, plotting revenge, etc on him.

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It sucks that he turned out to be such a rotter, but that’s life right? You can’t protect yourself from everything.

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Bitterness, resentment, and revenge may seem like your¬†best friends, but they really aren’t doing you any favors.

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After all, they’ve already misused you, why let them continue that. It is always better to move on.

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And I’m not letting that guy hurt me anymore. After all I got the best deal. I love his family, and they still love me. Plus I’m amazing! Eventually, maybe not anytime soon, but one day he’ll realize what a catch I was and kick himself for letting me get away! Your loss!

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And someone else’s gain.

And you are out of my thoughts forever.

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And that would be the end of the post, except for one thing. I did see him again. And no I didn’t hit him or injure him.

You see every year my family goes to see the free Christmas play in town. And this year guess who had the lead? Michael.

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Grab your torches and sharpen your pitchforks!

No I’m kidding. It actually wasn’t that bad. I saw his relatives again who I absolutely adore. I saw him and to be honest I didn’t care. I will admit that at one time the urge to kick him really hard came over me:

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But it was a really small urge.

In fact seeing him again, I actually wasn’t impressed. No heartfelt longing to get back together. No breaking down and crying. In fact, nothing at all.

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Now some of you might be wondering why I haven’t said anything about the girl he cheated on me with. I don’t really feel as if I can say anything because I don’t really know her role in this. Did she know he had a girlfriend? Did she try purposely to break us up? And to be honest, if she was actively involved than she is a horrible person, as scamming on somebody else’s person is just down right low. But, the person in the relationship is more at fault as they should know better.

And you know what, whoever is¬†at fault, they’re going to get what’s coming to them. What goes around comes around. I don’t have to settle the score as someone else will. What’s important is to concentrate on me, and the next phase of my life.

Some of you may think, that’s a lot of personal information. Aren’t I worried if the guy finds out and reads it? Well, first of all:

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And secondly, if he wanted me to say something nice, he should have been nicer.

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Now I’m planning this to be the very last post on my ex, I’m not planning on seeing him ever, and I don’t think I will write another thing on him. Now think is the operative word as every time I thought the Verne Saga was over, he would come around again.

So I am going to end this last ex post with something I want you all to remember. If you have ever been hurt by someone, let it go and never, ever let it take over your life or destroy your personality.

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Stay golden!

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For more musings of me, go to Concentrated Awesome

For more on getting over a broken heart, go to If It Means A Lot to You

For more on Nicholas Sparks, go to¬†I Don’t Want to Be in Love (Dance Floor Anthem)

For more on Sarah Dessen, go to I Will Survive

For more on Steve Maraboli, go to Love Will Find a Way

For more of my favorite quotes, go to The Many Reincarnations of Me

Missing You

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So the next song in my getting over a heartbreak list is one of my favorite songs ever.

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12) Missing You by John Waite

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I just love this song so much:

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Not only does it have great music and lyrics, but I feel like he just captures the emotions so well.

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The song is about a breakup and how he is missing his ex but then gets over them and stops mising them. Other people may not believe him, but he’s getting over that person. My favorite part is at the end when he loudly sings out, I ain’t missing you, I ain’t missing you at all!

This song works well next, because now we are reaching the point when you are starting to get over the other person, but can be brought back again into thinking of them, but are consciously making the decision to not have them on your mind.

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The  song is written by  John Waite and when it was released in 1984 it was  #1 on the Billboard Hot 100. The song has been covered by numerous artists, but Waite is the best (at least in my opinion).

The music video is also really cool. As it is told in a series of flashbacks as Waite is thinking of his past relationship, along with the present as he is trying to figure out what and where to go next. This song is super popular and has been in a ton of things: Warm Bodies, 22 Jump Street, One Tree Hill, Life As We Know It, Everybody Hates Chris, Selena, Miami Vice, etc.

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Every time I think of you
I always catch my breath
And I’m still standing here
And you’re miles away
And I’m wondering why you left

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There’s a storm that’s raging
Through my frozen heart tonight
I hear your name in certain circles
And it always makes me smile
I spend my time thinking about you
And it’s almost driving me wild

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And there’s a heart that’s breaking
Down this long distance line tonight
I ain’t missing you at all
Since you’ve been gone away
I ain’t missing you
No matter what I might say

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There’s a message in the wild
And I’m sending you this signal tonight
You don’t know, how desperate I’ve become
And it looks like I’m losing this fight
In your world, I have no meaning
Though I’m trying hard to understand

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And it’s my heart that’s breaking
Down this long distance line
But I ain’t missing you at all
Since you’ve been gone away
I ain’t missing you
No matter what my friends say

And there’s a message that I’m sending out
Like a telegraph to your soul
And if I can’t bridge this distance
Stop this heartbreak overload

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I ain’t missing you at all
Since you’ve been gone away
I ain’t missing you
No matter what my friends say
I ain’t missing you
I ain’t missing you
I can lie to myself

And there’s a storm that’s raging
Through my frozen heart tonight
I ain’t missing you at all
Since you’ve been gone
I ain’t missing you
No matter what my friends say

Ain’t missing you
I ain’t missing you
I ain’t missing you
I keep lying to myself
Ain’t missing you
I ain’t missing you
I ain’t missing you

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I’ve always felt that this song is super empowering
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You are finally heading round that corner to complete and total acceptance and renewal!

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To start at the beginning of the Heartbreak series, go to If It Means A Lot To You

To go to the previous post, go to¬†For a Pessimist, I’m Pretty Optimistic

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For more on John Waite, go to Say Something Human

For more of my favorite songs, go to Pizza Power

For more of my favorite quotes, go to¬†I’ll Be Alright Without You by Journey

For more on ’80s music, go to Love Stinks¬†

For more on Julie Lessman, go to At the End of the Rainbow

For more on Warm Bodies, go to Say Something Human

I’ll Be Alright Without You by Journey

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You probably know where this post is headed. Yep, its the next step in the Heartbreak playlist. We are now on:

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10) I’ll Be Alright Without You by Journey

So back in December I did a post¬†I’ll Be Alright Without You,¬†of which I talked a lot about how this song really expressed my feelings. I only added it in this line up because it went well in the playlist.

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So like I said before the lyrics are really beautiful and truly express trying to get over someone.

I’ve been thinking ’bout the times You walked out on me There were moments I’d believe, you were there Do I miss you, or am I lying to my self again

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I do these things… (It’s all because of you) I keep holding on, but I’ll try (try not to think of you) Love don’t leave me lonely I’ll be alright without you

There’ll be someone else…I keep tellin’ myself I’ll be alright without you Oh…love’s an empty face, I can’t replace (you don’t need it)

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People wonderin’ why we broke apart The great pretender here I go again These things I do (It’s all because of you)

I’ll keep holdin’ but I’ll try (try not to think of you) All I wanted was to hold you I’ll be alright without you There’ll be someone else, I keep tellin’ myself

I’ll be alright without you Love’s an empty face…Oh I’ve got to replace I’ll be alright without you There’ll be someone else, I keep tellin’ myself

I’ll be alright without you Oh…love’s an empty place, I can still see your face I’ll be alright

Breaking up is just hard to do (if it wasn’t there wouldn’t be a song titled that), and this just expresses exactly what one goes through. Remember you were fine before that person came into your life and you’ll be fine after.

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After all:

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To start the Heartbreak series from the beginning, go to If It Means a Lot to You

To go to the previous post, go to Chin Up Kid

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Other posts you might be interested in:

For more on my fav music, go to¬†That’s What You Get

For more of my fav quotes, go to The Two Times to Be Over

For more on ’80’s music, check out¬†Love Stinks

The End by Silverstein

Please keep reading, you won;t be disappointed,

Please keep reading, you won;t be disappointed,

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2) The End by Silverstein

So if you remember from my earlier post If It Means A Lot to You, I am doing a countdown of my favorite heartbreak songs to help one get over a break up. Now I did do an earlier post on this song when Michael and I broke up back in December, The End, but I only briefly talked about it. The album A Shipwreck in the Sand is kind of depressing, but still good:

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The album details the story of a guy who is cheated on by his girlfriend. To make it even worse, its not just any guy but his best friend. He eventually goes crazy and sets his house on fire, very¬†Secret Window-esque. Even though they broke his trust he still loves his best friend and girlfriend still so he ends up saving them from the fire, but still goes to court for his crimes. He is acquitted but loses his daughter to his girlfriend. He realizes he can’t go on living and ends up taking his life, hence¬†The End.

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Like A Day to Remember and Avenged Sevenfold, Silverstein was a band that Michael got me into, one of the several CDs he gave me. (Like I mentioned before a lot of these songs came from him. Is it irony or full circle?)

Like It Meant A Lot To You this song really expressed how I felt about the breakup. So here we go:

The first time we met
Your face became etched
In my mind

So the first time I saw his face, it wasn’t exactly etched in my mind, I mean I didn’t even think he liked me until a couple weeks later. But I also couldn’t stop thinking about him. He intrigued me and I wanted to know more about him.

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You were the sun
I was the one
Who worshiped you.
My hands were your guns
Your eyes were my muse.


And I knew you could never love me
I had so much sorrow inside
You could never reach
But can I still keep
A place in your heart?

This was how I felt after he dumped me. I thought it was all my fault, that I was the reason we broke up. Now I know that it wasn’t necessarily what I did, I mean I still have no clue what went wrong between us, but a breakup isn’t one sided, there us far too much that to have it be blamed on only one person (except when cheating is involved.)

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And all I kept thinking and hoping (at the time) was maybe he would change his mind, maybe I could hold a place in his heart (I know pathetic ūüė¶ But people act different when they care for others, they don’t do things they normally would. You just aren’t in your right mind)

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You broke my heart
You promised me the moon and stars
I fell for your dreams. I fell for your lies
There was no other way
You know I tried


Now this part of the song is sung by the gf but for me all I could think after we broke up was everything that Michael had promised me. Now I know some things were silly, like him planning our trip to Disneyland (I’m not that dense) but I thought that he meant it when we talked about seeing each other in the upcoming months, Christmas, New Year’s Eve, etc. And the worst thing is that I mentioned these things, and he knew he had already decided to break up with me but didn’t have the guts to let me know.

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And I knew you could never love me
I had so much sorrow inside
You could never reach
But can I still keep
A place in your heart?

There is something
I want you to know
I think you know exactly what it is
I didn’t want to save you
I didn’t want to save you
I set our house on fire
To watch it burn
But I couldn’t just leave you there

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I’m talking figuratively here. Don’t actually be burning things.

And I knew you could never love me
I had so much sorrow inside
You could never reach
But I’ll ask you this

Will you still miss me?
(Yes I’ll miss you)
Do you love me?
(Yes I love you)

Planes fill the sky
We’ll both die tonight
We’ll both die tonight
Hands from the sky
Swat us away like flies
As we follow the light

Planes fill the sky
We’ll both die tonight
We’ll both die tonight
Hands from the sky
Swat us away like flies
As we follow the light

We’ll both die tonight
We’ll both die tonight

Swat us away like flies
(We’ll both die tonight)
As we follow the light
(As we follow the light)

This union, a battle fought and lost
This union was not about the cause
This union was never about love

But you know what, even though it hurt at the time it probably was for the best. If he couldn’t tell me what was going on with him, couldn’t give me any attention,and just wasn’t as invested in our relationship like I was, it was good that we broke up.

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Although it did make me sad:

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But it can be better to end than to continue something that was not making both parties truly happy. (BTW by using the above pic I do not want anyone out there to think that I’m ¬†still wallowing [that’s over] or anything, it just fit well with what I was saying)

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And you’ll meet someone great who will be just right for you.

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For more on the Heartbreak Series, go to If It Means a Lot to You

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Otherwise here are a few posts you may be interested in

For more on Avenged Sevenfold, go to Belle of the Ball

For more on stories of betrayal by those close to you, check out Wake Up Dad 

For more on what a real man is, go to A Real Man

For more of my favorite songs, go to Once Upon a Time

Resort Getaway

Hey check this place out! Isn’t it cool? I wish I could go there. It’s so beautiful!

I just wanted to let you all know that I’m taking a virtual vacation. No blogging for a while as I have finals and want to rest ¬†up and then be ready to churn out some good quality posts. In my mind I will be here, but in reality most likely the library.

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Yep this’ll be me.

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I will miss you all, but I have to take a break. Talk to you all soon!

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