Where We’re Going, We Don’t Need Roads

So it’s that time of the year again!

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It’s time for our year in review! This is a time to reflect on what the past year held for us, the big posts, what’s new, and what you all seemed to like the most. ūüėÄ Something I did this year that I have never done before is post every single day, in fact I have reached my 300th and 400th post in this year.

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So even though what I have listed below may seem like a lot, especially compared to the previous year’s reviews, this post is actually only covering a few things. You really should check out the year yourself. To start at the beginning go here.

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1) The Views

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This year I had 31000 views!!!! Isn’t that amazing! I had only¬†9,542 views last year, which means this blog has widely grown! I have all of you to thank along with twitter and the good people at Buzzfeed who have been using my pics and linking them back to me. The top viewed day was October 11, in which I posted my review of¬†Scream 2,¬†It’s Happening Again, Isn’t It?: Scream 2.

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2) The Number One Post

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The number one post this year came during my 30 Days of Disney (see #17) in which I wrote about my favorite Disney princess. Since Disney has acquired Lucasfilm that makes Princess Leia a Disney Princess, and, in my opinion, the ultimate one. To read more go to A True Princess.

Second place went to a post from my first Valentine’s Day countdown,¬†Fulfilling the List: A Walk to Remember. In third was a post from my 2013 Halloween countdown,¬†I Saw Goody Osburn With the Devil: The Crucible. In fourth place a post dedicated to my sixth month anniversary,¬†Happy Anniversary. And rounding out this list we have in fifth place, a post all the way from my first holiday countdown,¬†Horrorfest,¬†A Monster Race: Scooby-Doo and the Reluctant Werewolf.¬†

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3) The Followers

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So this community has really grown in numbers and I can not describe how pleased I am about that. We have gone from 14 followers in 2012 to 42 followers in 2013, and are now at 169. That’s amazing!

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So enough about the statistics and numbers! Let’s move on to what was covered this year and what changes I have made to the blog!

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4) Quotable Quotes

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I started a new category this year called¬†Quotable Quotes. These are different quotes from books or sayings that I just absolute adore. Since I’ve added it, I’ve had a gazillion of them posted. In fact, almost¬†every post has a quote or saying now incorporated in it. Be sure that 2015 will bring many more!

For more on Ayn Rand, go to In Their Proper Place: Metropolis (1927)

For more Quotes, go to The Final Chapter

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5) Social Media

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This year I have expanded myself throughout social media! I am on facebook, twitter, and tumblr. Follow me for extra goodies, including my #ManCandyMondays and #FilmFridays.

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6) Quizzes

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Another new category I added this year was quizzes. Everyone loves personality quizzes, right? Well I’ve decided since I love to take them, that I might as well incorporate them in my posts. They are fun, and I always include the link so you can take your own.

For more Quizzes, go to What a Fanatic!

For more on Mean Girls, go to Food, Food, Food!

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7) Chinese New Year

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With 2014 we saw a return of the¬†Chinese New Year post, but it being a bit different. Because there are so many lovable Horse characters, I decided to list 14 of my favorite fictional horses from books and movies; instead of favorite moments involving horses. To read the post, go to¬†A Horse’s Tale.¬†

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8) Romance is in the Air: Part II

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I brought back my¬†Romance is in the Air: 14 Most Romantic Moments. I have to say some of them may be unusual, but my blog, my choices. The movies I covered were: It Happened One Night (1934), It’s a Wonderful Life (1946), Roman Holiday (1953), Mystic Pizza (1988), The Little Mermaid (1989), Anastasia (1997), Flintstones Viva Rock Vegas (2000), Princess Diaries (2001), The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002),¬†Love Actually (2003), The Notebook (2004), Persuasion (2007), Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part II (2011),¬†and Catching Fire (2013)

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9) Scenes from My Life 

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As every year I like to include little snippets of my everyday life. Such as my brush with death in Final Destination: Bike Edition. A weird experience in the mall,¬†A Trip to the Mall Turns Into the Twilight Zone. Getting attacked in¬†Snow White of a Day. Phone harassment by an ex-girlfriend in¬†Do You Know Where Alex Is?¬†A teddy bear I could NOT get rid of no matter how hard I tried in¬†The Teddy Bear that Would NOT Die!¬†My views on clothes of the day in¬†Fashion Show. A day of incredibly BAD luck in¬†Just One of Those Days…Nights…No Days.¬†How ordering pizza can be more than ordinary in¬†Pizza Delivery. My attempt to start a revolution and its failure in¬†Viva La R√©volution. My attempts to dye my hair in¬†That Girl is Poison. An exercise attempt gone horribly wrong in¬†The Little Moreland.¬†A chance meeting with a really hunky guy in¬†Just a Moment.¬†How chickens really hindered my day in¬†Why Did the Chicken Cross the Road?¬† And an attack by a Christmas Tree in¬†O Christmas Tree, O Christmas Tree.

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10) My Favorite Movie Lines

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As promised I brought this back! I tried to post every month 100 of my favorite movie lines: Episode III: Revenge of the My Favorite Movie Lines, Episode IV: A New Favorite Movie Lines List, Episode V: My Favorite Movie Lines List Strikes Back, Part VII: It Was Said One Night, Part VIII: The Little Movie Line List, and Part IX: Adventures in Movie Lines.

In June I did a whole post on my favorite Disney movie lines,¬†Episode VI: Return of the Favorite Movie Lines List.¬†In October I did a post on my favorite horror film lines,¬†Part X: The Movie List That Would Not Die.¬†And in November, I did an ’80s themed post:¬†Part XI: A Movie Lines List Excellent Adventure.

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11) Verne’s Back

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2014 saw the conclusion of the Verne Saga. Some of you may have read my Verne Saga, but for those of you who have never heard of it before, Verne was a guy who kept hitting on me and never leaving me alone. Everytime I thought it was over, he’d pop up again. Although this last sighting was the very last one…I hope.

To read the Verne Saga from the beginning,  go to Flirting With Disaster

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13) Honoring Pride and Prejudice

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Two years ago¬†marked the 100th birthday of¬†Pride and Prejudice and I was hoping to do extensive posts on the book; going over the novel, reviewing books based on it, movies, TV series, etc. Unfortunately, things happened and I was unable to continue. However, I did pick it up this year, and here are the posts I did on it. In¬†Flu Season¬†I talk about how Kitty is treated unfairly. In¬†Just Can’t Get a Break¬†I discussed how worse off Mary has it. In¬†First Impressions,¬†I talked about all the wrong things Mr. Darcy did when he was introduced to everyone. In¬†Oh NO YOU DIDN’T I wrote on Elizabeth’s reaction to Darcy calling her “tolerable.” In¬†The After Party, I wrote on how one always discuses what went on during a dance when it has ended. In¬†An Assembly Such As This, I reviewed Pamela Aidan’s first novel in the¬†Fitzwilliam Darcy, Gentleman series. Be assured there are plenty more to come.

Now when I was working on going through the novel, I decided it was unfair to the rest of the works to ignore them all. So what I have decided is that I am going to try and do all at the same time. Reading so many chapters in one, and matching that in all the others. Of course, along with doing books based on, films, etc. I have already started on Sense and Sensibility. 

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I have so far done only one post on it, A Family Affair, but there are plenty more coming. I also will be doing something on Emma as December 25th marks her 100th birthday as well.

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14) Painted Portrayals

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For Easter, I once again discussed different pieces of Art that depicted Christ. This year I chose¬†The Last Supper by¬†Juan de Juanes,¬†Duccio’s¬†Betrayal¬†of Christ,¬†and Reubens’¬†The Elevation of the Cross.¬†

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15) Musical Stylings of Me

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So I continued my posts of my favorite songs. This year I covered¬†The Final Countdown by¬†Europe,¬†Unbound (The Wild Ride) by¬†Avenged Sevenfold, Carry on Wayward Son by¬†Kansas, Na-Na-Na (Na-Na-Na-Na-Na-Na-Na-Na-Na)¬†by¬†My Chemical Romance, Highway Star by¬†Deep Purple, Rock You Like a¬†Hurricane¬†by¬†The¬†Scorpions, Animal I Have Become¬†by¬†Three Days Grace,¬†and¬†In Love with the ’80s (Pink Tux to the Prom).¬†There will be many more as I love music!

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16) Scenes of Supernatural

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Since my love of Supernatural is extremely strong and I include stuff from them all the time (i mean they have a gif for everything), I have also included a Supernatural category this year. There is plenty in the past and even more of Supernatural in the future.

For more on Supernatural, go to I Before E, Especially After P

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17) 30 Day Challenge: Disney Edition

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Every day in the¬†month of June I did a post on something I love about Disney. I’m such a Disney girl, that these were hard choices but I was able to complete them all.¬†Day 1) Your Favorite Disney Princess,¬†Day 2) Your Favorite Disney Prince,¬†Day 3) Your Favorite Disney Heroine,¬†Day 4) Your Favorite Disney Animal,¬†Day 5) An Underrated Disney Movie,¬†Day 6) Your Favorite Disney Villain,¬†Day 7) Your Favorite Disney Male Sidekick,¬†Day 8) Your Favorite Disney Female Sidekick,¬†Day 9) A Disney Film You Like but Others Hate,¬†Day 10) The Most Aesthetically Pleasing Disney Film,¬†Day 11) Your Favorite Disney Song,¬†Day 12) Your Favorite Disney Love Song,¬†Day 13) Your Favorite Disney Villain Song,¬†Day 14) Your Least Favorite Disney Song,¬†Day 15) The First Disney Movie You Ever Saw,¬†Day 16)¬†A Disney Movie that Makes You Laugh,¬†Day 17) Your Least Favorite Disney Classic,¬†Day 18) Your Favorite Disney-Pixar,¬†Day 19) Your Least Favorite Disney-Pixar,¬†Day 20) Favorite Disney Sequel,¬†Day 21) A¬†Disney Movie that Makes Your Cry,¬†Day 22) Saddest Disney Death,¬†Day 23) Your Favorite Disney Theme¬†Park Ride,¬†Day 24) Your Favorite Disney Kiss,¬†Day 25) Your Favorite Disney Classic,¬†Day 26) Your Favorite Disney Original Movie (DCOM),¬†Day 27) Your Favorite Disney Hero,¬†Day 28) Your Favorite¬†Scene from Your Favorite Disney Movie,¬†Day 29)¬†Your Favorite Disney Remake, and¬†Day 30) Your Favorite Disney Character of All-Time.

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18) Getting Over a Heartbreak Series

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This July I started a series of songs to help someone get over a break up. I would post every Tuesday,¬†Thursday, and Saturday from July to September. It was a lot of work but fun as well. The songs I chose were¬†If It Means a Lot to You by¬†A Day to Remember,¬†The End by¬†Silverstein,¬†I Don’t Love You by¬†My Chemical Romance,¬†Now You’re Gone by¬†Everyday Sunday, Heartbreak Hotel by Elvis Presley,¬†Good or Bad by¬†Action Item, Love Stinks by¬†The J. Geils Band, That’s What You Get¬†by¬†Paramore, Chin Up Kid by¬†Forever the Sickest Kids,¬†I’ll Be Alright Without You¬†by¬†Journey, For a Pessimist, I’m Pretty Optimistic by¬†Paramore, Missing You¬†by John Waite,¬†Gone Forever by¬†Three Days Grace,¬†Put Me Out by¬†The Used, But It’s Alright¬†by Huey Lewis & the News,¬†Since U Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson,¬†Move Along¬†by¬†The All-American Rejects,¬†Up and Up by¬†Relient K, Red Rubber Ball¬†by¬†The Cyrkle, Over You by Daughtry, I Don’t Want to Be in Love (Dance Floor Anthem) by¬†Good Charlotte, Here I Go Again¬†by¬†Whitesnake, Love Will Find a Way by Pablo Cruise,¬†Don’t Stop Believin’ by¬†Journey,¬†The Lining is Silver by¬†Relient K, Whip It by¬†Devo, Be Good to Yourself by¬†Journey, Any Way You Want It by¬†Journey, Unbound¬†by¬†Avenged Sevenfold, Here I Go by¬†Relient K, and I Will Survive by Gloria Gaynor.

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19) Harry Potter

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So this year I read all the Harry Potter books and saw all the movies. I am planning on doing a post on my thoughts of them soon. (I just have so many ideas and never enough time!) But because of that, I included a new category on Harry Potter and have mentioned it in many posts. And, yes I am a Slithryn, just like my favorite character Snape.

For more on the Harry Potter Series, go to When in Doubt

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20) Horrorfest III

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So this was the third installment of my horrorfest series, that is 31 days of horror films or Halloween episodes.

I covered the following films this year: Metropolis (1927),¬†The Wolf Man (1941), Shadow of a Doubt (1943), Laura (1944), ¬†Under Capricorn (1949), Dial “M” for Murder (1954), I Was A Teenage Werewolf (1957), Queen of Outer Space (1958), Jaws (1975), An American Werewolf in London (1981), The Terminator (1984), Scream (1996), Scream 2 (1997), Phantoms (1998), Alvin and the Chipmunks Meet the Wolfman (2000), Scream 3 (2000), Along Came a Spider (2001), The Ring (2002), When A Stranger Calls (2006), The Mist (2007), The Lovely Bones (2009), Vampires Suck (2010), The Wolfman (2010), ¬†Scre4m (2011), Godzilla (2014),¬†and¬†Gone Girl (2014).¬†

I also reviewed the following TV episodes:¬†Happily Ever Aftermath from¬†Grimm, Monster Movie from Supernatural,¬†Tuesday the 17th from¬†Psych, and Who’s Afraid of Cory Wolf? from¬†Boy Meets World,¬†

And I did a post on 100 of my favorite movie lines from horror films, Part X: The Movie List That Would Not Die. 

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21) The Fifth of November

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So celebrating the 5th of November isn’t exactly new as I have done it in the past. However, the last time I did it, it was on Doc Brown’s amazing idea of Time Travel. This year I did it on¬†V for Vendetta. To read the post, go to¬†Remember, Remember the 5th of November.

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22) Fandom Posts

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This year I started a series of posts on things I am a huge fan of or fandoms I am in. It was supposed to just be one post, but instead has become very many. I post every Sunday, with each post covering six of the things I fan over. So far I have covered: Agatha Christie, Alfred Hitchcock,  Anne of Green Gables, Archie Comics, The Avengers, Avenged Sevenfold, Awkward, Back to the Future, Batman, Bones, Boy Meets World, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Captain America, The Chronicles of Narnia, Copper, Criminal Minds, CSI, DanisNotOnFire/Dan Howell, Deadwood, Diagnosis Murder, Disney, Downton Abbey, Frank Peretti, The 4400, Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, Friday Night Lights, Game of Thrones, Garfield, Gilmore Girls, The Godfather, and Jane Austen

If you would like to check these out, go to Fanning All Over the Place, Simply Fantastic, Fantastic Fantasies, A Whole Lot of Fanfare, and What a Fanatic!

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23) Thanksgiving
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Two years ago I did a Thanksgiving post, and I decided to do it again this year. I not only talked about what I’m thankful for, but pie, Twin Peaks,¬†and Supernatural.

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Last year I mentioned I found this on Pinterest:

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But I ended up with so much stuff I actually had to do a shoebox full. Just so you all know, I will be posting on that shortly.

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So happy 2015 everybody!

And don’t forget to dress like this!

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And this!

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May this year be as awesome as always imagined!

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To read a review of the year 2013, go to Looking at the Past, Focusing on the Future

For the review of the year 2012, go to Looking Back, Moving Forward

For more on Back to the Future, go to Just a Friendly Reminder

Keep On Loving You: Romance is in the Air, Part II

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Well, Valentine’s Day is coming up, and you all know what that means: 14 posts on some of my favorite romantic moments from some of my favorite films. To review the top 14 romantic moments from last year, go here. Otherwise get ready for the romance and love headed your way.

There are Some People…and Then There’s Me

There are some people…and then there’s me

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Yeah, I haven’t really been feeling the whole Valentine’s Day spirit.

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I’ve actually been having a hard time with¬†Romance is in the Air: Part II:

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But never fear dear readers I will complete it. I guess I will have to read up on Romance is in the Air to get back in the mood.

The End: Goodbye Michael, Goodbye

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All things must come to an end. And as stated before, my relationship with Michael has ended and with that any more posts about him. It’s time to fully move on. We had the Verne Saga, the Michael Drama, and now its time to move onto something completely new.

It’s hard to fully move on as I was counting down the days until I would see him again and couldn’t wait until I was home and could spend time with him. I was totally the guy in If It Means A Lot to Youor¬†All My Lovin“.¬†There are some days when I do great, and others when all I can think of is what could have been, what I could be doing with him. Some days I feel very much like Shawn Spencer in the Psych episode “Right Turn or Left For Dead“.

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The hardest thing is not knowing exactly what happened that made him change his feelings for me. I keep contrasting the old Michael; (the Michael that¬†played the piano for me, would text me cute things, the one that had to see me so much that he skyped me on his vacation, who spent all his evenings and some days with me, was waiting for the right moment to kiss me, who was excited to take me out on a “real” date, the guy who I had trouble getting him to stop talking to me on the phone); to the Michael that started ignoring me, and was so emotionally detached and standoffish. I just don’t know what happened.

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I mean I was terrified to try a long-distance relationship as I thought it wouldn’t work out, but he was so secure and sure, he made me believe it and I don’t know what made him change his mind.

I went and returned some of his stuff and asked him what happened, but he wouldn’t answer me until I harshly pressed him. He told me that 1)¬†I wasn’t the person he wanted to marry. This really threw me as matrimony was the furthest thing from my mind. I mean we had only¬†¬†been dating 5 months of which only 2 did we interact everyday with each other (the other 3 we were apart), and I think that is waaaay ¬†too short a time to be thinking of marriage. There was still so much we needed to learn about each other. We needed time to grow our relationship and be a couple before marriage could even be thrown on the table. I mean, how could he even know with that short of time? At the beginning of our relationship I mentioned that so many of my friends were getting married and having babies and that I was no where near ready for that anytime soon. I mean if he really wanted to get married, wouldn’t he have just have not dated me? I mean we talked about HIMYM and I told him how Ted’s constant falling in love and trying to marry girls who did not want to be married constantly annoyed me, and he agreed with me. ¬†I know I never tried to pressure him into thinking we had to get engaged. I never even tried to pressure him into saying I love you. I never asked for a promise ring or any jewelry. I really feel that this is a copout.

He also told me that 2)”we were too different”. I don’t know why he would say that, as in the summer we “were so much alike“. I tried to press him on what was different and he couldn’t give any definite answer just kept repeating “we are too different”. I don’t understand what was so different; we both are human, grew up in church, lived in the same town, have suffered from addictions, are the youngest in our families, have similar morals, beliefs, values, and political thoughts/ideologies; loved to read similar stuff, watch the same type of movies, etc. I mean I don’t drink, but that’s not like I ¬†judge anyone who does. I don’t have tattoos, but I never said anything about his other than when I said that the process looked extremely painful. I don’t know what he thought I wouldn’t be able to understand or empathize.

¬†He also said 3) he was ¬†too aloof for me, and I demanded too much of his time. All I was asking for was 20mins a week to talk or skype, some texting, and seeing him once a month when I visited home. I don’t know where he will find any girl less dependent or consuming of one’s time. I actually don’t mind spending time by myself and doing my own thing, I missed him though and wanted to be with him. Besides when I was there this summer not only did he tell me how he hated being alone (kinda cancels out being aloof) but he spent practically every day with me, and I did not force him to do that.
I feel like the song¬†The End”¬†by Silverstein, “you broke my heart, you promised me the moon and stars. I fell for your dreams. I fell for your lies.”
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He told me so many things and I believed him. He talked about our future, making plans, and he didn’t come through. And the worst thing of all, he knew he wanted to break up with me, but didn’t have the courage to say anything. He lead me on. He allowed me to think nothing was wrong and let me plan spending my winter break with him. I searched for a perfect Christmas present for him, and when I texted him I had it, he already knew that he had no plans to spend Christmas with me. He knew that my Grandfather died and he said nothing. Any decent person would be there for¬†someone who was hurting, but he just ignored me and my pain. It wasn’t immediate but for a while I just wanted to slap him or hit him. The song “Blow”¬†by Atreyu describes how I felt about him.
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But now I’ve gotten past that. I’ve forgiven him for what he did and how he hurt me. I really cared about him, and as pathetic as it might sound to some, I genuinely hope that he finds happiness, and someone to care about him as much as I did. I actually am starting to feel bad for him, as I know that I will find someone else who will treat me how I deserve, but he will have lost out on me. He’ll never find another girlfriend who didn’t care about his past, only the present and future. One who never pressed him about things in the past he didn’t want to discuss, but waited until he wanted to share. Who didn’t care that he couldn’t take her on a “real date” as she didn’t care about money but spending time with him. Who never judged or criticized him. Who always supported and encouraged him. Who sent him care packages, even though she was the one that was “away”. He will never find someone who will listen to all his hurts and insercurties and do everything in her power to make sure that she doesn’t contribute to them, but try and help him overcome them. I mean at times I felt like telling him that I had other guys very interested in me, but I knew he had previous relationships were the girls broke his trust and I didn’t want to to that. He will never, ever, ever, find a girl who when they broke up never told him about the hurt and bitterness he caused her, but tried to encourage him all the way in the end, sharing instead all the things she loved about him. Who told him that she loved him, not as a ploy to get back together or make him feel guilty, but because she did and because she honestly wished for his happiness. What can I say, I’m one in a million and he is going to miss out on me.
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It’s funny, because when we started our relationship it reminded me of Lloyd and Diane from¬†Say Anything. Michael was Lloyd, very adorable, easygoing, friendly, impulsive, full of life experiences, etc. And I was a much nicer version of the more structured, focused, not as socially experienced, more of a loner Diane. But somewhere along the way, I became Lloyd, and Michael Diane. Just like in the film, ¬†something happenedc to change how Michael/Diane felt about the relationship, and instead of talking about it ¬†they decided to break it off. Like Lloyd, I did a final move, although not nearly as epic as his boombox move. I was working on a CD to tell Michael how I felt about him as I was planning on dropping the L-Bomb on our fifth anniversary. We broke up two weeks before that, and I was going to delete the playlist, but finished and dropped it off asking him to just listen to it. He told me once that he always listens to any CD given to him twice, and I hope he listens to this one as nothing could better describe how I felt about him.
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Now not everything was bad about what happened. I’ve always been afraid of commitment and allowing someone into that space of my life and with Michael I learned how to care, trust, and let down emotional walls. And except for the last three weeks of our relationship (when he started to ignore me), Michael was a pretty¬†great boyfriend. He¬†really made my summer special and I am so thankful for that, as it is the best summer I’ve ever had. I also found out that I am capable of long-distance relationships, as I never thought I would be able to. But I cared about him so deeply that while the distance was long and sad at times, it was worth it. And it was nice having¬†a very intelligent, funny, attractive, sweet guy as my boyfriend, as short as it was. Plus he introduced me to some great bands. I’ve always liked all types of music (besides rap), but most of my musical knowledge ends in 1989, and he opened me up to some great stuff. I love¬†A Day to Remember, Silverstein, Atreyu, Chiodos, Three Days Grace, My Chemical Romance, Streetlight Manifesto,¬†and¬†Avenged Sevenfold. I found a a7x sweater in a thrift store and almost bought it, but it was white and I always ruin my white sweaters. ūüė¶ He had been lending me his CDs to check out the music, and I ¬†(of course) had to return them to him. I then went to the library and put holds on everything they had from these bands.

It’s been about a month since we broke up and still hurts. This describes perfectly how I feel.

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I know I’ll find someone else and I won’t settle for anything less than a Lloyd, Mr. Tilney, or ¬†any of the amazing men in my¬†Romance is in the Air¬†series (or part II). I’ll be okay. The hardest thing is that there was this guy Martin who liked me when I was dating Michael, and when I let him know I had a boyfriend he backed off. As soon as he found out Michael and I broke up, he immediately upped his game. All the attention, the flirting he’s doing, etc.; hurts. It’s not coming from who I wanted it to be from. But in time I know I will heal. It won’t be easy, but I know I’ll come through this okay.

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